Yes, I've been MIA for a month

... and with an acceptable reason.

I've been pretty open about how law school affected my life since I nose-dived into it without much preparation or warning. (Well, I've been warned, but I didn't think it would be too difficult. I was wrong.)

The epic failure of my grades, my barely-existent social life reduced further to mere miniscule shambles, my stressed-out appearance, my dwindling eyesight (I'm near-sighted and it's getting worse.), and my constantly saturated brain were the results of my first semester in law school.

It's not fun. It's challenging definitely, but not fun.

We're constantly bombarded with essay questions which seem more like trick questions, rather than an essay ones. MCQs are hecka confusing, and the teachers, well, some of them are exactly the devil personified.

And so, I am left confused and torn yet again.

During my first week of law school, the Dean of our College told us that being in law school required a lot of sacrifices - some small, some big - all of them essential in order to survive law school.

She said that, "Law School is a jealous mistress...". Most of the working-students were discouraged from employment if it's possible for them to study without any distraction. And this advice came with good reason: law school really is tough.

And this topic, I would like to relate with the promise I made a month ago: I promised not to abandon writing my SoEul fanfiction entitled "Keeping the Casanova". In fact, I even promised not to quit writing fanfics.

I haven't posted an update for a month already, and this has been a constant source of heartbreak. I feel that as a writer, I've failed in the most basic task of posting new chapters for my readers.

And I don't even have much time to write because most of my time is spent on reading, studying and memorizing. What's left of it, I use to rest and help out with the chores at home. (I'm the eldest daughter. Imagine the responsibility.)

As of the moment, I am in deep contemplation. (Not to mention, confused as hell.)

I have been writing for eight years now - admittedly, that is not such a short time and something that is not easy to give up.

I don't want to give up writing fanfics.
I don't want to give up writing Keeping the Casanova.
I don't want to give-up SoEul.
I don't want to give up being shattered teardrops.

...but it's as if I'm driven to the edge and forcefully pushed to choose between two things I highly value.

School or Writing?

The decision is heartbreaking. =(



regards,
shatteredteardrops

Last Week of Summer

This week is actually my last week "free"...

That is because my classes will start on June 6, Monday next week. But before that, I have a few things to do... Like buy school stuff, arrange my living quarters in the city, and buy some new clothes and things because I have a shortage of clothes.

I'm no longer gonna be wearing uniform so I need clothes, and because last month, I gave away most of my clothes to charity. So yeah... I need to do some shopping.

HOWEVER!

Before June 6 comes, I have a few goals set for myself.

Goals:

• Re-write and re-vise Bittersweet Reunion up to Chapter 6.
• Update He Caught Me on Wattpad.
• Update KTC Chapter 19.
• Read more fiction books.

That's it! Hopefully, before I return to my boarding house on Sunday, I would have completed these goals for this week. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed. =)


-shatteredteardrops

Whoever you are...

from so-IN-love (Read More?)

This reply is probably a year too late and I apologize. It's only recently that I've been able to view the comments in my blog posts so here is a long overdue reply to Miss so-IN-love, whoever you are. =)

First off, yes, I am the same shatteredteardrops (shattered_teardrops) from Winglin, LU, Asianfanfiction.com, Fanfiction.net and Soompi who wrote Capturing the Casanova and Keeping the Casanova. haha Ironic, isn't it? That I am able to weave spunky romance stories though my own love story doesn't even come close to having a happy ending... =)

Aha! So you're a Filipina, too? Nice to meet you! =) I'm glad I was able to reach out to my fellow Filipinos through my writing!

Yes, I do agree that this may be the sharpening process for both of us. Relating this to the SoEul pair, Chan Sung may have been my potter's kiln which burned me but made me stronger in the process.  Yes, I've watched One More Chance and you have no idea how much that movie hit me with so much emotion because I was able to relate to Bash (Bea).

Thank you so much for leaving footprints in my blog. You have no idea how much you've made me happy knowing that I was able to touch another person's life through my story.

As of the moment, I am happy and contented. I am single but committed, and let's leave it at that. *winks* I'm no longer filling my head with delusions of getting back with Chan Sung because I have my whole life ahead of me. I'm entering law school on June and that's what I'm prepping myself for. =)

Again, thank you very much, Miss so-IN-love, whoever you are. And if you happen to read this, I wish you happiness in life as well. May you have a love story that transcends even story books and novels, and maybe, if by the moment you find love and have no one to share it with, I'm very much open to listen.

God bless you and take care! =)


-shatteredteardrops

Created a Tumblr account today.

Well, since I've already tried having a Xanga and Blogger account, why not try Tumblr as well?
I want to try and compare the blogging features of these three sites. I'm not out to hate or comment. I just want to try.

Tumblr seems to be setting new trends in the blogging community nowadays. I want to see why so I'll try. Other than that, it's also because I'm getting tired of this blog. I can't seem to decide how I want it to look.

keke Maybe I'm just getting a little to restless.



regards,
shatteredteardrops