Yes, I've been MIA for a month

... and with an acceptable reason.

I've been pretty open about how law school affected my life since I nose-dived into it without much preparation or warning. (Well, I've been warned, but I didn't think it would be too difficult. I was wrong.)

The epic failure of my grades, my barely-existent social life reduced further to mere miniscule shambles, my stressed-out appearance, my dwindling eyesight (I'm near-sighted and it's getting worse.), and my constantly saturated brain were the results of my first semester in law school.

It's not fun. It's challenging definitely, but not fun.

We're constantly bombarded with essay questions which seem more like trick questions, rather than an essay ones. MCQs are hecka confusing, and the teachers, well, some of them are exactly the devil personified.

And so, I am left confused and torn yet again.

During my first week of law school, the Dean of our College told us that being in law school required a lot of sacrifices - some small, some big - all of them essential in order to survive law school.

She said that, "Law School is a jealous mistress...". Most of the working-students were discouraged from employment if it's possible for them to study without any distraction. And this advice came with good reason: law school really is tough.

And this topic, I would like to relate with the promise I made a month ago: I promised not to abandon writing my SoEul fanfiction entitled "Keeping the Casanova". In fact, I even promised not to quit writing fanfics.

I haven't posted an update for a month already, and this has been a constant source of heartbreak. I feel that as a writer, I've failed in the most basic task of posting new chapters for my readers.

And I don't even have much time to write because most of my time is spent on reading, studying and memorizing. What's left of it, I use to rest and help out with the chores at home. (I'm the eldest daughter. Imagine the responsibility.)

As of the moment, I am in deep contemplation. (Not to mention, confused as hell.)

I have been writing for eight years now - admittedly, that is not such a short time and something that is not easy to give up.

I don't want to give up writing fanfics.
I don't want to give up writing Keeping the Casanova.
I don't want to give-up SoEul.
I don't want to give up being shattered teardrops.

...but it's as if I'm driven to the edge and forcefully pushed to choose between two things I highly value.

School or Writing?

The decision is heartbreaking. =(



regards,
shatteredteardrops

Last Week of Summer

This week is actually my last week "free"...

That is because my classes will start on June 6, Monday next week. But before that, I have a few things to do... Like buy school stuff, arrange my living quarters in the city, and buy some new clothes and things because I have a shortage of clothes.

I'm no longer gonna be wearing uniform so I need clothes, and because last month, I gave away most of my clothes to charity. So yeah... I need to do some shopping.

HOWEVER!

Before June 6 comes, I have a few goals set for myself.

Goals:

• Re-write and re-vise Bittersweet Reunion up to Chapter 6.
• Update He Caught Me on Wattpad.
• Update KTC Chapter 19.
• Read more fiction books.

That's it! Hopefully, before I return to my boarding house on Sunday, I would have completed these goals for this week. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed. =)


-shatteredteardrops

Busy as hell

My life took a sudden dive for a lot of things... Literally.

I will have a few days off for Christmas but that's the only rest I get after a lot of weeks filled with strenuous activities ranging from mountain-hiking, gift giving, Christmas parties and the moohlaah... er... whatever.

Anyways, I will try to conjure an update for my stories during the few days of free time I'm allowed to have in the spirit of Christmas. Hopefully, it'll be my Christmas gift to all of you. =)

Just Started my OJT

That is my on-the-job-training at the Office of the Ombudsman... I just started yesterday, December 1, 2010 and everything is going well so far.

This pretty much takes up most of my free time during weekdays aside from my classes so yes, I'm still busy. Gaaahhh... Free time, when will you ever come to me and give me enough rest?!

Anyways, yeah, that's it.

Wish me luck on my OJT! =)

Academic Stuff

I would like to apologize in advance and also inform you guys that I will not be able to update for this weekend as well as next week...

I will try but it'll be hard to produce an update for any of my stories.

Reason is, my final exams are going to be on October 6, 7, 8, 2010.

After that, I have a few things to take care of. I have deadlines to catch for projects and all that crazy stuff for the University. Other than that, I also have to start applying for potential law schools that I might go to.

More so, I have a thesis to take care of, on-the-job training among other things.

So yeah, I'm quite busy... as always. *sigh*



regards,
shatteredteardrops

Epicly Tiresome...

Hey!

So, most of you were informed about my finals exams this week, plus a debate and lots of stuffs going on at school, but those weren't even half of it. Honestly, I am in dire need of a break from everything academic and extra-curricular-related stuffs.

So, for the record, let me itinerate my schedule within the next few days, up until next week. I might get a break this weekend but I still have to study for my make-up exams for the Political History of Middle Eastern countries, so my weekend would probably be spent mostly on that as well.

March 18, 2010
- Local Holiday (No class, No exams)
March 19, 2010
- Exams on Political Theory 2 and Rizal, Literature presentation and debate.
March 20, 2010
- I might unwind and go out with a few friends.
March 21, 2010
- REST plus study for my make-up exam the next day.
March 22, 2010
- Make-up exam on Political History of Middle Eastern countries.
March 23, 2010
- Student Council Alliance of the Philippines registration and first day meeting.
March 24, 2010
- Second day of SCAP and Assembly Day.
March 25, 2010
- Day 1 of Sensitivity Program at Guimaras Island. (beach)
March 26, 2010
- Day 2 of Sensitivity.


Kill me.


regards,
shattered teardrops