I Feel... Pressured?

Honestly? Yes, a little.

Ever since I've finished my SoEul fanfic entitled Capturing the Casanova and posted it on Winglin, Soompi, The Archive and FF.net, I have received multiple PMs, comments and reviews about my grammar, the fluidity of my story, my creativity, my English, yada-yada-yada... And I'm really thankful... Truthfully, I feel very happy that a lot of readers appreciate the way I write and the ideas that come out in my story.

BUT... Okay, there's that big BUT.

I've also received comments telling me to write another SoEul fanfic. The truth is, I have a third SoEul fanfic apart from the one-shot I made and CTC. It's entitled "The Art of Lip-Locking" and is posted only at The Archive.

Don't get me wrong. It's not like I'm hiding this fanfic that's why I'm not posting it on other sites just like CTC. It's just that I've written this fanfic out of pure fun and... erm... Well, I wouldn't call it perverseness. I'd rather call it... Sensuality. Yes, that's the term. hehe

The Art of Lip-Locking is actually an NC-17 fanfic, that means its has smut and lemony scenes which are not suitable for young readers. Hence, I'm scared to post it on Soompi and I'm a little doubtful whether I should post it on Winglin and FF.net. Maybe I'll do that when I get half-way through the story. But definitely not right now.

Anyway, that's not why I feel being pressured. The truth is, I feel pressured because many of my readers tell me that I should write MORE SoEul fic or rather ANOTHER SoEul fanfic. This is what pressures me the most because even though I love the SoEul pairing, I'm scared to be categorized as an Author who merely excels in writing fanfics for SoEul.

Personally, I'm half-way through SoEul. What I meant is, I feel like I've done what I could do with the pairing. And that I should move on and create another story with different characters. Again, I don't mean that I no longer ship SoEul. I'm still a true blue SoEul Shipper. I'm still a fan. But as a writer, I feel like I should let them go and create different characters apart from SoEul.

And this pressure... I think it's caused by being torn between what the writer in me wants and what the readers want me to write. I want to create my own characters apart from SoEul. But the readers want me to write more SoEul.

See?

As of now, I haven't updated any of my other on-going fics. I'm still busy with school. Heck, who the hell crams up Constitution and Civil Rights with Political Theories and Argumentation and Debate? Not to mention, Research on Political Science? What the hell were they thinking cramming up all the major subjects in one sem? Honestly! I feel like... ugh... I am so dead.

That's it for now...
Will update if there are new developments...


regards,
shattered teardrops